{"product_id":"a-rented-life-become-your-lover-and-someone-elses-9781425925673","title":"A Rented Life: Become Your Lover And Someone Else's","description":"\u003cp\u003e • Author(s): Frances M. Pfaff\u003cbr\u003e • Publisher: Authorhouse\u003cbr\u003e • Publisher Imprint: Authorhouse\u003cbr\u003e • BISAC: General\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThe biggest challenge in my life was not to find someone to love me. It was to find my love for me. Thirteen years of an early childhood that were a combat zone filled with terror, anxiety, fear, verbal\/physical abuse, sleepless nights, screams, helpless to rescue, hopeless to escape, suicidal thoughts, poverty and alcoholism, that left ghosts in the aftermath within me that I carried unaware for most of my life. I still fight them. I was emotionally crippled by a disability that was so insidious that it was only visible in its effects of my movements, poor choices and the resulting consequences that were based on a distorted, warped life filter. I had sub-zero, self-esteem and so I courted and reinforced this image of myself as a loser and so I kept losing. The relationships I had never satisfied that gaping, seeping wound without a name that would not heal or let me go. Why? Because the love that I kept searching for was my own love. More aptly, it supported an ongoing oppression of my value as a person. In essence, this is a journey of loving myself backwards and now forward. I am no longer a restless, dislocated, missing person. I have found myself, alive and well-after all. If your life seems similar to mine I would encourage you to read books about Adult Children of Alcoholics and Post-Traumatic Stress Syndrome. My thanks to all those people and programs involved in alcoholism and domestic abuse. You are helping to save lives!\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Authorhouse","offers":[{"title":"Paperback","offer_id":47613187915927,"sku":"9781425925673","price":1632.0,"currency_code":"INR","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0666\/3471\/1191\/files\/9781425925673.webp?v=1775083277","url":"https:\/\/atlanticbooks.com\/products\/a-rented-life-become-your-lover-and-someone-elses-9781425925673","provider":"Atlantic Books","version":"1.0","type":"link"}